Monday, April 9, 2012
Sunday, December 4, 2011
So after getting back to my room and realizing that I haven't had a meal today, I decided to order a small pizza. This is my awkward phone conversation with the employee...
Guy: So what would you like to order?
Me: I would like a small hawaiian pizza please.
Guy: oh nice. Your name is ______? And you're at _________ Hall?
Me: ... uh... yeah
Guy: We have it on file that's why.
Me: *awkward giggle* oh gotcha.
Guy: Did anyone tell you that you have a very pretty voice ________?
Me: *awkward giggle again* uh...
Guy: By the way, my name isn't Dustin, its Jake.
Me: Oh I see?
Guy: I just have to say that cuz I'm logged in under him but anyways, I wanted you to know my real name
Me: uh huh?
Guy: Did you know that I've been working since 2PM today (it was 1am at the time of this conversation)
Me: Oh, that sucks
Guy: Yeah it's alright though. I get to talk to people like you!
Me: *awkward laugh*
Guy: You know what? Just because I'm that type of a guy, I'm going to give you free dessert!
Me: oh uh.. thank you...
Guy: Yup! So it comes out to $$.
Me: alrighty, thanks
Guy: No problem, I'll give you a call real soon.
Me: *hang up* That was the most creepy talk over the phone ever... -_____-
Friday, December 2, 2011
My mind has been everywhere lately. Every time I'm alone, I have a million things going through my head and each of them makes me more unsure and anxious. Perhaps this is a sign for me to have a stronger focus on God. However, as a insecure and dumb human being, I feel pretty lonely down here. It's funny because I can be surrounded by groups of people that I would consider my closest friends, but I still have moments of anxiety and nervousness.
I often think about everything that's going on in my personal life as well as in my family. Then I picture the world as I want it to be... Then, soon, I realize that days are passing by and those dreamt up moments only happen in my imagination.... Every night I want to be comforted. I don't mean it in a 'I want a boyfriend' kind of way. I just want to be comforted by Him. Although I desperately reach out, I don't always find Him near. As my grandma recently told me, I am always in His arms, but am too distracted and confused to realize it.
I wish the world would stand still for a moment and all I have to think about are happy memories. Those memories that happened when I was too naive to care about other things. The ones shared with the people that I once thought cared...