10 Reasons why you'd miss him

1. He'd always make you feel pretty. You can look like crap with glasses, messy hair, and your pjs, but he'd still call you sexy. You can look super tired with bags under your eyes and he'd think you're cute. On your way to parties he'd look at you and tell you how beautiful you looked.

2. You can call or text him at 5am and he'd still talk to you like he hasn't talked to you in ages, even though you were just together.

3. He'd always spoil you. He always remembered what you wanted and got it for you as a surprise. He'd also always take you out for dinner or movies without asking anything in return.

4. He'd always take your side even though he knew sometimes you were the one at fault. Although when you were having one of your heated debates with him, he knew to not just let you win.

5. He'd cuddle with you without expecting more.

6. He'd take care of you even when you didn't notice.

7. He'd hold your hand in front of his friends and is always the first to reach for your hand but never the first to let go.

8. He'd always let you know just how much he missed you.

9. He'd make you laugh for hours and always try to cheer you up when you're in a bad mood

10. He'd drive for over an hour just to see you for a few moments.

Whatever He plans for you to be

Lately I've been having a lot of thought as to what I career path I should take after college. This is really quite weird for me especially because for about 17 years, all I wanted do be was a doctor. Through different health related problems that my mom went through when I was young, I was determined to become a doctor so that no one else would have to go through the same problems. Even having someone in the family with those issues can be extremely heart breaking. However, lately I've had a lot of different thoughts about becoming a doctor. What if after 10 extra years of studying, fellowships, internships, etc, I decide that it's not the path for me? What if I decide that I'm not going to be happy for the rest of my life after taking that job? I can't get the TRUE experience of being a doctor until I fully become one right? I mean a lot of people say shadow, intern, volunteer, etc, but that can only take you so far. Trust me, I've done quite a few of those. That's why I've been looking at a lot of different careers that I know would make me happy because it truly makes me happy now.

I spoke with my mom several times about this issue and she always tells me that she's happy with whatever I decide. She just wants to make sure that whatever career path I decide to follow, it'll make me happy to have followed it. A few days ago, I spoke with her again about this issue and was mentioning how becoming a vet is another career choice that I would really like to consider as well as being a performer or something in the entertainment industry like a radio broadcaster or a TV producer. I shared with her about things that she already knew so well such as my love for animals and my love to be in the spotlight on stage but also complained to her about the uncertainties I have. She just listened for a long while and once again said 'Whatever makes you happy, will make me happy'. 'UGH mom.. you're not helping me at all right now.. I wanted your advice!'. That's when she told me- ' instead of asking me for advice, did you ask Him for advice? Stop thinking I should do this or that because it'll fill my heart and soul or make the ones around me happy. Pray and speak with God about what He has PLANNED for you. If you don't listen and shut Him out because of your selfish desires, you might not be truly happy in the end.'

I've spoke with my friends at school about this matter several times in the past, telling them that I will not be able to accept it if what He has planned for me isn't what I want. However after that talk, I've realized that what I want doesn't really matter and it never has. The true happiness and joy will never fill me as a whole if I follow my earthly ways of being what "I want to be". The true happiness and joy will come with whatever He plans for me to be...

Just like water

People are quite like water. The water we drink, the water we feel in, the water that falls from the sky. Like water, people change there ways and form their shape around whatever 'object' they are contained in. We change the way we act around different situations and different environments. Like water, people are easily tainted. Like pure water that gets easily tainted by things like mud, people are easily swayed by the influences around them. Like water, people easily disappear. People come and go in our lives. More often than not, it is hard to keep someone from leaving than to stop someone from coming in. However, like water, people are needed and easy to restore. Although a lot of things are going on in the world, without one another, we would never be able to make through it all. Like water, people can be tainted, but I like to believe that people are born with pure hearts. Therefore, like water, people are easily restored to their original purity.

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