Friday, December 30, 2011
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Monday, December 5, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Creepy phone call
So after getting back to my room and realizing that I haven't had a meal today, I decided to order a small pizza. This is my awkward phone conversation with the employee...
Guy: So what would you like to order?
Me: I would like a small hawaiian pizza please.
Guy: oh nice. Your name is ______? And you're at _________ Hall?
Me: ... uh... yeah
Guy: We have it on file that's why.
Me: *awkward giggle* oh gotcha.
Guy: Did anyone tell you that you have a very pretty voice ________?
Me: *awkward giggle again* uh...
Guy: By the way, my name isn't Dustin, its Jake.
Me: Oh I see?
Guy: I just have to say that cuz I'm logged in under him but anyways, I wanted you to know my real name
Me: ...
Guy: _________?
Me: uh huh?
Guy: Did you know that I've been working since 2PM today (it was 1am at the time of this conversation)
Me: Oh, that sucks
Guy: Yeah it's alright though. I get to talk to people like you!
Me: *awkward laugh*
Guy: You know what? Just because I'm that type of a guy, I'm going to give you free dessert!
Me: oh uh.. thank you...
Guy: Yup! So it comes out to $$.
Me: alrighty, thanks
Guy: No problem, I'll give you a call real soon.
Me: *hang up* That was the most creepy talk over the phone ever... -_____-
Friday, December 2, 2011
Held by Him
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Psalm 13: 5-6
Many personalities
Lately I've been having many different emotions all mixed in one. Sometimes, it's hard for me to handle all the things going through my head. I often have to just sit and stare off into space for a little while, doodle, or take a relaxing shower. By the time I've come back to reality, I realize all the time that was wasted and get upset as a result. These are my 'I am's lately:
- I am a coward- someone who will hide behind a wonderfully semi perfected personality of being the content one in society.
- I am a phobic- afraid of getting hurt, so always smile through everything and try to push myself down before someone else does.
- I am a performer- Life is my stage
- I am a lier- constantly lying to those around me to keep them happy or to keep myself from getting hurt
- I am a naive planner- things not going the way I planned makes me anxious and stressed beyond belief.
- I am a wishful thinker- Always having expectations of those around me.
- I am a tired traveler- exhausted from all the acts put up, all the let downs, and unexpected detours.
- But in the end... I am a believer.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Isaiah 41:10
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Psalm 25:16-17
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Ron and Hermione are hard to come by
Music History? HAHAHA!
NEED TO DIET!
Monday, July 18, 2011
Friday, July 15, 2011
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Shoes essentials
The other day one of my friend asked me why girls need so many different pairs of shoes. Being a long time shoes lover I thought I would have the right answer for him, but I couldn't find the words to describe it. I kept on telling him ' because it completes your look' or ' there are so many to choose from and you just fall for every one of them! They become your babies of sort?'. He thenwent on to explain how most guys have average of 3 types of shoes - sneakers, flip flops or sandals, and formals or work shoes. Although I knew this to be true, I was so shocked considering the amount of shoes that I have. After I got back to my dorm room, I begin counting. In the end I came up with- 5 sneakers, 1 hightop converse, 2 knee high boots, 3 ankle boots, 1 rain boot, 2 flats, 3 high heels/formals, 4 sandals, 1 slippers, and 2 flip flops. This is NOT counting the countless heels, flats that I have at home... Do I wear all these shoes often? No. In fact some of these shoes I haven't worn in months. That is why I've decided to make a list of essentials! This isn't really going to guarantee my shoes loving habits dying down but it's a start! Also, this is just strictly my opinion.
-A pair of cute but comfortable sandals for everyday walking in a hot summer day
-A pair of flats that will go with just about any outfit, especially skinny jeans or a cute skirt
-A warm and comfortable pair of knee high uggs or similar furry boots for those unbearably cold winter days
-A pair of cute ankle boots for less cold and more completing your skinny jeans or skirt look
-A sexy pair of make-you-feel-super-confident-and-sexy stilettos
-A pair of black heels for some formal occasions that requires less 'pop' and more formal
-A pair of open/peep toed or sandal heels for special occasions or a night out.
-A pair of super comfy slippers
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Queen Night Owl
Thursday, June 16, 2011
10 Reasons why you'd miss him
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Whatever He plans for you to be
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Just like water
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
You pour out from up above
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Sin hurts
Sin Hurts
2 Samuel 14-15; Luke 17:1-19
Sooner or later we all feel the painful effects of sin. Sometimes it’s the weight of our own sin and the shame and embarrassment of having failed miserably. At other times, it’s the load of someone else’s sin that weighs us down—someone who betrayed, deceived, abandoned, ridiculed, cheated, or made a fool of us.
Think about a time when the weight of that guilt or pain was so heavy that you couldn’t pull yourself out of bed. Now try to imagine the heaviness of the combined grief that everyone’s sin has caused your family, your church, your neighborhood. Add to that all the suffering sin has caused everyone in your city, state, nation, and the world. Now try to imagine the accumulated grief that sin has caused throughout the centuries since creation.
Is it any wonder that the weight of all this sin began squeezing the life out of Jesus on the night He was called to bear it? (Matt. 26:36-44). The next day, even His beloved Father would forsake Him. No other suffering can compare.
Sin put Jesus to the ultimate test. But His love endured it, His strength bore it, and His power overcame it. Thanks to Jesus’ death and resurrection, we know beyond a doubt that sin will not and cannot win.
Is God aloof from human pain
That ravages our mortal frame?
Oh, no, Christ felt our agony
When sin and death He overcame! —D. De Haan
Christ’s empty tomb guarantees our victory over sin and death.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Fish Bowl
Lately, I feel as though we're all fish living in a giant individual fish bowl. My friend once told me that gold fish are so stupid because they forget that they've been in the same fish bowl by the time they've swam around it. Therefore, they think that they're swimming in an open area.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Habit
So I have quite a few really weird habits. One of those weird habits is that I have a tendency to pick at my skin around my finger nails. I usually do it so much that it's always red or scabby or bleeding.... I've done everything I can do get myself to stop (except for the stupid things like wearing gloves for a month straight etc) but it's still going on! It's so embarrassing especially when people ask me what happened to my fingers. Let's just hope that nobody thinks I have a weird skin disease or something! I don't even remember when it started except I think it started when I was about 5 or so? Apparently I just do it unconsciously throughout the day. Most of the time I find myself doing this is when I'm in a situation that I don't like (boring situations, frustrating situation, awkward situations.. you get the idea). However, I think it happens randomly as well.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
A Suicide Note
Monday, February 28, 2011
Don't fit the mold
I never pictured myself as being hott or pretty. I don't fit into the petite, skinny, long blonde hair, with blue eyes stereotype. And I don't fit into cute LITTLE asian girl type either. There are times when I desperately wanted to fit into the mold. The mold that the society created for us. I wanted nothing more than a slender figure and the curves in all the right places. I wanted nothing more than a small face with big light colored eyes and a plump luscious mouth. However, that's "mold" isn't me... So don't try to put me down or change the way I look because it isn't your place nor is it your right.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Call me
I gave you a chance
Lately, I've been saying this to myself a lot. "I gave you a chance...". This quote can be directly at me or someone else, but usually hasn't ended up the way I wanted it. It's quite selfish of me, but a lot of my actions towards my friends, recently, have been like a test. Because it's easier to deal with any distress by creating it yourself. With all these thoughts in my head, I keep repeating the process over and over again, waiting for them to fail.... Then I quietly say to myself "I gave you a chance...."
Saturday, February 19, 2011
In the past
I was watching one of my favorite shows today called "Star junior show boong-a-bbang". I started to think about my past and remembered some amazing childhood and all the love that I received. However, I also remembered all the times I spent alone in my house... Dad was working abroad for most of my life and mom sometimes couldn't make it home. I guess that's what happens when you have an important position in a busy corporate company.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Even if I die, I can't let you go.
To give your all to someone...
To give your all to someone is like giving a part of your soul to them. The receiver must take careful measures to cherish it or else the giver's soul will be damaged forever. When I make friendships it is not very easy for me to give my all to them. It takes me awhile to even open up a little bit of myself beyond the shallow point of my thoughts. Yes, I have plenty of friends that I'm close to but can I really say that I've truly opened my thoughts to them? Once that line of trust is established, it is hard for me to not depend on them and trust them with all my heart. It is also hard for me to get back up to that point when the trust is broken or I feel betrayed.